It's not who you were, it's who you are.

Dori. Twenty-something. Always something quirky to say. "If they're words from your heart you scream twice as loud." - Dave Grohl


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Mom and Dad. Their love knew no bounds or limits. Their love was pure and genuine. I hope one day to find that kind of love. #momanddad #love

Have you ever looked at someone and wonder how you ever could have been in love with them in the first place; and yet still miss them at the same time?

rosecoloredfog:

I can hear some words, but I can’t do anything with your easy words.

Honest to God, I feel like I am dead inside. I do. I don’t understand love, apparently I don’t know how to love the “right way”, or my love isn’t enough, I care too much, I give too much. I don’t even know what to say really. 
I’m terrified of accepting love, because I don’t know if love is real anymore. I loved so fucking hard in 2011. My first real, ‘Holy shit! I’m in love.” We haven’t spoken since December 2011. And I am trying really hard not to care anymore. It’s almost like a subconscious thing now. I have really weird dreams with him in them.
I can’t even keep friendships alive. I haven’t slept in 24 hours. I’m feeling suicidal and having self harm thoughts. I am not going to do anything because my mom has all sharp things locked up. 
I just feel so alone, this was not how it was supposed to be. And it really makes me miss my daddy. He would be really good to talk to at this point. He always knew what to to say and do. I miss him so fucking much. More than anyone could ever imagine.
I witnessed pure, true love in my home growing up. I was raised in a loving family. My parents were married until my dad passed away. They were married 35 years. I just want something like that. And I keep thinking, I’m 28, my twenties were shit. I don’t think I can take another decade of suffering, I know I’m gonna have to work at it. And I’m trying as hard as I can right now and as little as that looks to other people…I AM FUCKING TRYING WITH ALL MY MIGHT!
And it would appear from the outside that maybe I’m not trying as hard as I could be, but that’s not the case, I go to therapy every week. I do everything I am supposed to. I take my medications, my many, many medications.
Oh yay, I’m bawling now. I didn’t mean to spew all this out, but it is my blog, no? This isn’t directed at one singular person, I swear. It’s about my life and what and how I am trying to fix it and how I feel.

rosecoloredfog:

I can hear some words, but I can’t do anything with your easy words.

Honest to God, I feel like I am dead inside. I do. I don’t understand love, apparently I don’t know how to love the “right way”, or my love isn’t enough, I care too much, I give too much. I don’t even know what to say really. 

I’m terrified of accepting love, because I don’t know if love is real anymore. I loved so fucking hard in 2011. My first real, ‘Holy shit! I’m in love.” We haven’t spoken since December 2011. And I am trying really hard not to care anymore. It’s almost like a subconscious thing now. I have really weird dreams with him in them.

I can’t even keep friendships alive. I haven’t slept in 24 hours. I’m feeling suicidal and having self harm thoughts. I am not going to do anything because my mom has all sharp things locked up. 

I just feel so alone, this was not how it was supposed to be. And it really makes me miss my daddy. He would be really good to talk to at this point. He always knew what to to say and do. I miss him so fucking much. More than anyone could ever imagine.

I witnessed pure, true love in my home growing up. I was raised in a loving family. My parents were married until my dad passed away. They were married 35 years. I just want something like that. And I keep thinking, I’m 28, my twenties were shit. I don’t think I can take another decade of suffering, I know I’m gonna have to work at it. And I’m trying as hard as I can right now and as little as that looks to other people…I AM FUCKING TRYING WITH ALL MY MIGHT!

And it would appear from the outside that maybe I’m not trying as hard as I could be, but that’s not the case, I go to therapy every week. I do everything I am supposed to. I take my medications, my many, many medications.

Oh yay, I’m bawling now. I didn’t mean to spew all this out, but it is my blog, no? This isn’t directed at one singular person, I swear. It’s about my life and what and how I am trying to fix it and how I feel.

anomalija-incubusic:

INCUBUS = LOVE :]

by Incufans México (Comunidad)

That is indeed what happens.

Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what-have-you; The right person is still going to think the sun shines out of your ass.
Juno

theloversblog:

I have been working with Runes lately and felt called today to pull a Rune to share as an overall theme of the times as of late. Inguz is what popped up into my fingers. In, the Hero God is the Rune of fertility and new beginnings. Here is a little of what it says…

“Drawing this Rune may…

Dude this is freaky because I think I should do this. I’ve been going through these themes so strongly in my life. I think it would help. I am not the same girl I once was. I am a woman.

Peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of all those things, and still be calm in your heart.
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Incubus,
I Wish You Were Here (Radio Si

arecklessrebel:

Incubus - Wish You Were Here

I can’t help but feel happy every time I hear this song.

(via bear-knuckles)

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Foo Fighters,
Five Songs And A Cover

lifewasted:

grohlholic:

F.F.L. - Foo Fighters

Stop scrolling and listen to this now.

fucking, this song

fucking

OH DEAR GOD HOW COULD I HAVE NOT HEARD THIS ONE!!!

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Incubus,
If Not Now, When?

cnsmith:

Tomorrow’s Food

-Incubus-

We are all Tomorrow’s Food, today.

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Incubus,
If Not Now, When?

cnsmith:

Switchblade

-Incubus-

I keep getting attacked by
the girl in the black hat,
the girl in the black hat…

I want to hear this live sooooooo badly. The harmonies are insane on it live.

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Incubus,
If Not Now, When?

cnsmith:

Isadore

Incubus

Love this song. Love this album. So unbelievably happy this was gifted to me. I need to show more appreciation. Because this album, is slowly becoming my favorite.

I can’t ever not reblog this song. It’s compulsive, it’s my absolute favorite song in the world, every time I hear it live, my heart just soars….every time I hear it period, my heart soars.

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Incubus,
If Not Now, When?

cnsmith:

If Not Now, When?

By Incubus

The greatest band on this Earth.

lostrockerash815:

Watching Incubus Look Alive DVD. Help me, I cant handle it. Can someone just tell me how they are so perfect and amazing? Its doing my head in. I just, ahh. Help me. Crazy damn band and their bloody amazing music.

P.S, I’ve had craploads of sugar today… so yeah.. dont blame me for anything weird I say

INCUBUS!!!!!!!!!! \m/\m/ It’s okay, I’m all hopped up too. Hahahahah. For obvious reasons.