He asked if he thought I should be back in the hospital with my hallucinations going on (I hear voices if not properly medicated.) And I said no, I have been using my coping skills, but I have been very triggered lately and I really just felt it was a medication issue.
So we tinkered with my meds. He added another antipsychotic and upped the antipsychotic I was already on (Seroquel) from 600 to 1200 at night. He said it should also help out with my panic and I can take an extra Klonopin for anxiety. I feel a little bit better seeing him, since he knows me and knows how I operate. I still feel like total fucking shit, it’s gonna be a little bit before the meds kick in.
I also see my psychologist at 1pm. I have plenty to talk about. I know it feels like I’m just telling him the same things over and over, but if I still need to work on it, it is still helpful to talk about it. He practices EMDR with me. It’s pretty interesting. Hell, I’ll just link you to the Wikipedia on EMDR
He’s a great psychologist. I still miss the one back home in California, but I have gotten to know my doctors here in Missouri and come to trust them. So that’s a good thing.
I’m really sleepy and am gonna take a nap after I see the doctor, but I just wanted to update everyone.
Thank you for always being so caring, dearest followers and friends.
Thanks, Chelsea. That means a lot to me. Love right back at you. <3
Seeing both my psychiatrist and my psychologist tomorrow. My psychiatrist is an emergency appointment. My meds need to be tuned up and the nurse practicioner I saw on Monday did fuck all, but make me feel terrible about myself.
I am having extreme panic attacks and my insides feel like they are on the outside. Plus I have suicidal and self harm thoughts. I’m not gonna do anything, but the thought is still there.
I have a whole bunch of other shit going on, but I must keep some things private.
Thank you for always listening my dear followers. I love you.