Here I am sitting in my Nirvana shirt and underwear eating popcorn for breakfast and about to watch The League season 4 online. I’m hardcore.
Blood On The Ground
Friends and Lovers
Here In My Room
Just A Phase
Nice To Know You
Oil And Water
Summer Romance (Anti-Gravity Love Song)
Talk Show On Mute
Under My Umbrella
You Will Be A Hot Dancer
Pretty bad ass!
Even I can’t recall how many days I have been out there for.
When Aurora’s lights ceased to shine, I was alive, I think, for the first time.
Infinity it falls, in feathery folds but she bites like loveless ice, and with her
belly full she called this rite of passage, it was the longest night of my life.
Oh, this song is so sexy.
He asked if he thought I should be back in the hospital with my hallucinations going on (I hear voices if not properly medicated.) And I said no, I have been using my coping skills, but I have been very triggered lately and I really just felt it was a medication issue.
So we tinkered with my meds. He added another antipsychotic and upped the antipsychotic I was already on (Seroquel) from 600 to 1200 at night. He said it should also help out with my panic and I can take an extra Klonopin for anxiety. I feel a little bit better seeing him, since he knows me and knows how I operate. I still feel like total fucking shit, it’s gonna be a little bit before the meds kick in.
I also see my psychologist at 1pm. I have plenty to talk about. I know it feels like I’m just telling him the same things over and over, but if I still need to work on it, it is still helpful to talk about it. He practices EMDR with me. It’s pretty interesting. Hell, I’ll just link you to the Wikipedia on EMDR
He’s a great psychologist. I still miss the one back home in California, but I have gotten to know my doctors here in Missouri and come to trust them. So that’s a good thing.
I’m really sleepy and am gonna take a nap after I see the doctor, but I just wanted to update everyone.
Thank you for always being so caring, dearest followers and friends.
Thanks, Chelsea. That means a lot to me. Love right back at you. <3